Well, I have done some serious soul searching. I have read all I can absorb. Spoken with many adoptive families, in various stages of adoption and really examined my heart. I really would welcome the blessing of another child. A son perhaps, but a child through adoption. A child a little older92-3.5) although I LOVE babies and that "goes by too quick!!" stage.
Things are "on hold" for now.
Hard to believe I just wrote that, but its true. My SW checks in with me periodocally, she knows my heart is not 100% sure of an only child, but I have not engaged her services. (officially)What I realized over this last few months of soul searching is something I alluded to earlier.I have actually sacrificed time with Olivia, thinking, pondering, and pining for another child. Not fair to her for sure but also not fair to myself.
Prayer is still my strongest hope.
Thanks to everyone cheering for us!!
Be blessed in your parenthood!
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I am happy to hear that you have found some peace. I'm sure that when and if a child is meant to join your family the timing will be perfect. Until then you have your lovely Olivia and she is a miracle :)
Oh I can so relate. I've decided to give myself 2 years. Adoption can consume you, I know so many people who've come to the same realization you have (that blogging, reading about adoption etc is taking them away from their kids who are already home) and so many who don't see it yet :) While my reasons are different, I've really come to see when you feel/hear doubt often it's our hearts and heads telling us we need time. I'm planning some nice things, like travelling, but also planning saving and starting when my head and heart are in the same place! It will happen.
So glad you are well,
I just emailed you!
Even after you decide to go ahead, you will still struggle. I have my second official ap mtg this saturday and much of the paperwork is done, yet I am still scared silly lots of the time. I really hope, at least now, that MY process is slow. I just need to enjoy my muffin, get her fully talking so I always know what she wants and THEN bring baby home...
Thanks for stopping by my blog..
Have a great day
Wendy
You know I bring this blog up every once in a while... changed your mind, yet? :)
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