Months later

Well, I have done some serious soul searching. I have read all I can absorb. Spoken with many adoptive families, in various stages of adoption and really examined my heart. I really would welcome the blessing of another child. A son perhaps, but a child through adoption. A child a little older92-3.5) although I LOVE babies and that "goes by too quick!!" stage.
Things are "on hold" for now.
Hard to believe I just wrote that, but its true. My SW checks in with me periodocally, she knows my heart is not 100% sure of an only child, but I have not engaged her services. (officially)What I realized over this last few months of soul searching is something I alluded to earlier.I have actually sacrificed time with Olivia, thinking, pondering, and pining for another child. Not fair to her for sure but also not fair to myself.
Prayer is still my strongest hope.
Thanks to everyone cheering for us!!
Be blessed in your parenthood!