A sibling? A brother?

I attended an adoption seminar in April. At that time, I was just collecting information. I attended because it was close to my home, time condusive to my mom babysitting (1-4) and it was a different agency(#D) from the one that facilitated Olivia's adoption. Olivia's agency(#A) was WONDERFUL!!-Still are, but are struggling along with all International adoption agencies, on what programs to offer their singles. Because God knows there are a large number of single parent wannabes. AND that for the most part-most of us would LOVE to be a partnership-but just aren't and can offer something these orphans do not currently have. A HOME. Unconditional LOVE. Support. a LIFE of chances. These orphans can offer many of us; A HOME. Unconditional LOVE. Support. a LIFE beyond ourselves. The local agency-#D- has an established program with Ethiopia. Do I know anyone here?No. Do I know EVERYONE at Olivia's agency?Yes. I travelled with some of them. Brought home our Chinese children together. The other MOST important reason for meeting agency-#D- is that my first agency has now instituted a non gender bias policy. ( in my heart I totally AGREE with their thought process and subsequent decision...but it means not requesting a girl. With China, I most likely would've received a girl regardless but with other countries this is not so much guarenteed)Back in April-when agency #A put this policy into effect-I felt I would not be able to work with them again since my preference (THEN) was a girl. Thank GOD for time. And blogs. My wee narrow mind was closed to the thought of a boy because of FEAR. Single mother"dumb" thinking I could not raise a boy. Weird thought since I am closer to my nephews than my nieces.
AND that Olivia would ADORE a brother. So my heart has flipped. Done an 180. BRING ON THE BLUE!! Well, I would not gender specify at all in my next HS. I'd leave that up to the divine angels GOD has working in these adoption centers. But I am so open to a little boy.
Guess what --this has only INCREASED the yearning.
I chatted this weekend with a new, wise friend and she invited me to the CanadaAdoptsEthiopia site as well as an upcoming picnic.(Thanks Dollie) Looking forward to meeting many families there and adoring their babies.
The seed is so planted.

People reading this blog??

Hi Kate and All,
Sorry I haven't posted much here. I spend a wack of time reading, commenting on others blogs and then surfing for the tiniest bit of info regarding Ethiopia. Living vicariously through others experiences.
My "sense/longing/yearning" has not diminished in one tiny bit. I am praying for revelation. I want with all my heart to pursue this but the signs were so clear from God during Olivia's adoption, that FEAR (aka the devil) has krept in and taken hold. This Sunday Pastor Steve said something that struck a cord with me. If we constantly speak about what we are worried about, writing it down, giving witness to it at every turn(with co-workers, family, friends) it comes to pass because it gets all our energy away from having FAITH. AND turning towards GOD. Therefore, DON'T WORRY!! PRAY, PRAY AND PRAY some more.Wait on the Lord.
That's what my plan is for now.
Thanks for reading.
Blessings